Everything in my life....as changed... Ever since my sister got a boy-friend, my mom as been paying more attention to her, instead of me...
I like attention, okay. When I ask my mum a question like "Pink or blue ?" She's still talking to my sister ;~;
I feel alone, with only my friends.
Two days before, me and my sister had a fight, I wasn't in a good mood. My mum, brother but not my dad were there to see us fight.
Later on, at the end of the fight with my sister, me and her made our mum cry.
I went to sleep, and as I closed my ears,tears fell of my cheek. My mum came in, and tried to cheer me up, and failed.
The next day, I wasn't the up-beat person I was, I was gloomy, I was quiet, and..well, stressed.
Then later on, my mum called for me, I came to the room, walking like a zombie. She said these words, not exact, but something like this; "I know how you're feeling,Lara. Don't be sad because I'm spending more time with Mariam. I love you as much as I love your sister,and brother."
I started crying, I guess I'm more emotional now....way more....
TODAY/YESTERDAY, *I haven't slept, so I am confused.* My sister took her dumb horse riding group to go to a restaurant. I, and my brother went to our grandma's.
My Aunt told me to come with her to the SAME restaurant, she we'd said sit without the group, and what she meant, was that we'd sit in the SAME EXACT TABLE.
As we came through the door of the restaurant, we went upstairs. I took a glance around the room, and found out; we were going to the group. I let out a silence sigh.
I look at the table, I was freaking out. I look at my sister, she has a mixture of emotions on her face, I could tell two; Disgust, and anger.
I sat close to me aunt, I told her if we could leave.... we went to another restaurant next door, it was full, so we went back, and sat on another table.
Me and my Aunt had a conversation, and one that really broke my heart was a question; "Why don't you see Mima anymore?" (Mima is my bff in Real life~) All I could think, but dared not to say was; "Because my Mum spends more time with my sister, and cares less about what I want to do."
I know that what I thought was wrong, and not true. But I felt like it was. I mean, I do because; One, I wanted to go fencing for two years, and never went, even though my sister could start HORSE riding. Two, I feel so much more lonely.